Alive

I love my daddy. I lost him in July of 2011. The last phone message he left for me, that I will save forever is " It don't matter if you're black or white. Bye..."  

After being zinged by a misguided person's comment from out of the fog of misunderstanding and hasty conclusions, I waited three days. A dear friend suggested I do this. (Thank you dear friend.) I waited to feel the true message in the unfair reprimand I received. I waited because it seemed like a sign was hiding under the outrageous accusation.

After losing my own father, who was a sweet, tender-hearted person in his essence and core, I wondered how I would feel if somehow I found someone who was bringing me messages of love from him. I dreamt of him last night and my eyes opened from the dream at one point at exactly 4:09 am. His birthday was April 9th. I receive messages from him and other spirits often. It's like living in two worlds simultaneously. I can't help it, and I don't wish to. I'm learning to cope with and appreciate it more and more. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes I feel weird and that if people knew this about me they would think I was crazy. Things come to me mostly through music and writing. I think I spend most of my dream-life in another dimension, learning and doing things to help loved ones in my Earth life. How many of us are there with this gift? There are probably many more than we realize. Everyone has this ability, it is inherently in everyone, but we don't all seek or see it. (That is the most urgent message of all.) I became  increasingly aware of a need for "higher love" and actively willed it to myself. This passionate pursuit brought Spirit in with trumpets and raging guitar riffs and moonwalking. Surprise!

Life is too short to hide or be afraid to give your gifts. Pray to be guided to those who genuinely need what you have to give, and will those you need to yourself. You may not find them in the physical, but you will find them.  

It means your best friend may be invisible. It also means that you will NEVER lose him, never be misunderstood by him and most of all, you'll never be alone. TYM

When physical lifetimes are over - a change takes place, but with what I have come to see and know, I realize that "death" is purely a physical ending. My daddy is still alive. His spirit is closer to me than ever. A few days before he passed he shared with me that he was seeing a picture of me in his mind, "flashing over and over." The picture he described was one after which he had patterned a portrait of me at the age of two. This portrait is the one I stood by to pray for him. I never told him that before. He told me. How can someone "see" what is in someone else's mind? It is only explained by a world of love that never dies...a world of spirit.

There was no hoax, no faking of Michael's death. Yet I know he is alive. It would hurt me if someone tried to tell me that my daddy isn't still alive. So, with love and faith, I'm going forward with sharing the messages as I've been prompted and sometimes screamed at to do. If his children ever find them, that will be his doing and blessing to them. The timing will be right, and there will be only love and healing. I could keep them to myself, and hide in my private little world and be thrilled with the messages, but that would be selfish. I trust the messages will only go where they want to go, as I have always said about the book. 

When faced with, "You're still kind of sitting on the fence. It's time to give up or go deeper..." I'm choosing to go deeper. It's the only thing I can do. I thank all my friends and even "Miss Guided" for the new start. My prayer is that messages from Spirit become a natural part of everyday life for everyone, until we can walk side by side, see and converse with our guides...  

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"If I could tear down these walls that keep you and I apart..." ~Michael, "Invincible."

"Let our spirits never die..." ~Michael, "Heal The World."

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